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Name: cortney
Location: Lancaster, Pennsylvania, United States
Birthday: 8/10/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: friends, books, writing, strawberries, chapstick, helping people, josh groban, jonathan larson, my car, gay guys, mashed potatoes, broadway, my little brothers & sisters, sunglasses, cape may, hoodies, idina menzel, chocolate chip pancakes, london, the beach, rent & having fun.
Expertise: liars, cheaters, heartbreakers, stovetop, june, closed minded Christians, addicts, bitches, jealous people, users, losers, raisins, science, hate, drugs, absent fathers, cutting, therapy, medication, philhaven, ex boyfriends, fake mashed potatoes, & fake people.
Occupation: retail store manager
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  anocturnalheart
Member Since:
5/2/2004
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| The Confessions Game
Don't give any names. you're my only regret. i wish you had loved him like i did. i cry almost everyday because you just don't seem to care. he would have been beautiful, you know. i'm pretty sure that i'm going to end up like you and i'm scared because i really don't care. i will love you until the day i die. no matter what. i blame you and i always will. i wish you could see how beautiful you are. all i want is for you to pick up the phone. even if you tell me you hate me, i need to hear your voice. i promise that together, we will conquer this illness that plagues us. i don't know how you can ever expect to put a ring on my finger from 4 hours away. i'll never see you in the same way you see me. i'm sorry. i would give my last breath for you to find happiness. i know that i don't mean nearly as much to you as you do to me and i don't care. i still love you, i don't tell you nearly enough how much i appreciate you.
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| Appearance
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[o] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[o] I have many scars.
[o] I tan easily.
[o] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[o] I have a tattoo.
[o] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] have/I've had braces.
[o] wear glasses.
[o] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[o] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[o] I have more than 2 piercings.
[o] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.
Family/Home Life
[o] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[o] I've been kicked out of the house.
[o] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[o] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[o] I've lost a child.
School/Work
[ ] I'm in school.
[o] I have a job.
[o] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[o] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[o] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired.
[o] I've skipped school.
Embarrassment
[o] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[o] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[o] I've snorted while laughing.
[o] I've laughed so hard I've cried
[ ] I've glued my hand to something
[ ] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public
Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[o] I've gotten stitches.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[o] I've had my tonsils removed.
[o] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[o] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[o] I had a serious surgery.
[o] I've had chicken pox.
Traveling
[o] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[o] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[o] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
Experiences
[o] I've gotten lost in my city.
[o] I've seen a shooting star.
[o] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[o] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[o] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[o] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[o] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[o] I've gone skinny dipping.
[o] I've played spin the bottle.
[o] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing
[o] I've been in a play.
[o] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[o] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[o] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[o] I've played chicken.
[o] I've played a prank on someone.
[o] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[o] I've eaten Sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.
Relationships
[o] I'm single.
[ ] I'm in a relationship of sorts.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[o] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[o] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[o] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[o] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[o] I've kept something from a past relationship.
Sexuality
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[o] I am a cuddler.
[o] I've been kissed in the rain.
[o] I've hugged a stranger.
[o] I have kissed a stranger.
Honesty/Crime
[o] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[o] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out
[o] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[o] I am keeping a secret from the world
[o] I've cheated while playing a game.
[o] I've cheated on a test
[o] ran a red light
[o] I've been suspended from school
[o] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[o] I've shoplifted
Drugs/Alcohol
[o] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[o] I've smoked weed
[o] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped X.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[o] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills
[o] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[o] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[o]I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[o] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[o] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I'm addicted to self harm.
[o] I've woken up crying.
Death and Suicide
[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[o] I hate funerals.
[o] I've seen someone dying.
[ ] I've held someone while they died
[o] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[o] I've planned my own suicide.
[o] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.
Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[o] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[o] I own something from Hot Topic.
[o] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[o] I own something from The Gap.
[o] I own something I got on e-bay.
[o] I own something from Abercrombie.
Political/Social Attitudes
[ ] In general, I don't like people.
[ ] I'm a feminist.
[o] I'm outgoing.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[o] I'm Democratic.
[ ] I'm Republican.
[o] I'm liberal.
[o] I'm religious.
[ ] dress fairly modestly.
Random
[ ] I can sing well
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[o] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[o] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[o] I curse regularly.
[o] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[o] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic
[ ] I twirl my hair
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name
[ ] love being neat
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[o] I cook well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[o] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[o] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[o] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[o] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[o] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[o] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[o] I am really ticklish.
[o] I love white chocolate
[o] I bite my nails.
[ ] I play video games
[o] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names
[o] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
[o] My answers are totally honest
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| as i sit here listening to paula cole i'm pensive at best and pissed at worst catching up on the lives of friends past and present loving and hating the 'read subscriptions' button i'm not too sure that i'm okay or that i ever was to begin with you love someone i used to i held him closer to my heart than any other and he hated me for it best of luck would my son have grown to know his father? all signs point to no tears threaten to ruin my newfound stoic view of life so i fight them because for once, i think i can win for years i have adorded plath for her agony, so profound it could no longer be ignored i have idolized elizabeth wurtzel, for screaming and yelling and crying like i wish i had the nerve to i'm terrified now, that i will slowly and dangerously become them alone and angry and then, one day baking will become dangerous and the cookies left on the counter will be my last will and testament cortney hall 1.13.08 | | |
| so i got my lip pierced. me, the girl who never follows through with stuff, actually did it. and it looks pretty nice. i spent some quality time in OCMD with ryface, josh and shawn. and the 4 of us actually had a pretty good time. nothing quite beats being stuck with 3 gay guys for 4 days... last night i went to my assistant managers house for a cookout/bonfire. it was actually a pretty good time. i was expecting to be bored out of my mind, but luckily i wasn't. we played bocci ball, made s'mores and sang random songs. well, i'm off for now. be good kids. <3 | | |
| happy birthday my love <3 | | |
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